Maybe Never

Norxaki

Compositor: Dani Juárez

Why do I have to feel like this?
It's not your fault but I wish it was
Razorblade kisses in my skin
While sad songs plays in my ears

Why do I always return to you
If I know it breaks me everytime?
Why do I make me look at you
When I know you can't be mine?

I know I can't be loved
I know that I'm not healthy
My mind is so fucked up
Please, somebody help me

I'm hurting myself for you
I see my blood drops in the ground
Do you even care how I feel?
Well, I wouldn't be writing this if you did

All this voices in my head
All of them tell me to end it up
All of them want me dead
Will somebody hear me out?

I hate falling in love
I mean, I hate that I fell in love
You were my first love
You were my only love

They say that you can't be hurt by someone that you have never touched
By someone that you have never saw

But, shit, it hurts
You don't know how much it hurts
Shit, it hurts
You don't know how much it hurted

It's breaking me down, again and again
I'm letting it drown, drown this pain
It's breaking me down, again and again
I'm letting it drown, drown this pain

I'm not okay, I'll let you know that
I'm not okay, I'll let you know that

It is hard to love that hard
When I hate myself and want to die
Selfharming in my arms while throwing up stars
I'm throwing up stars

I see sparkles in your memories
Did you really were that good?
Can't get through with therapies
I know you think that I could

You only look out for me when you want to feel loved
Just tell me, baby, do I make you feel loved?
You only look out for me when you need to be hold
Do I make you feel in home?

Do you know that I'm alive 'cause I promised it to you?
Well, I think I'll make you dissapointed once again
Because I don't know if I'll be alive when you listen to this
I don't know if you are listening to me

I want to hate you but I can't
I want to blame you but I'm the only guilty here

Sorry, but I wrote your name in my chest using a knife
Sorry, but I need to cry for ten years more
I'm living for the 'maybe' that I know that will never come

I am living for the 'maybe' that I know that will never be

Shit